Michigan's Resident Rocker's Life At A Crossroads

Well, here it is; Michigan's Resident Rocker is in the Cockpit ; under the beautiful Flag of God's Country which as all of yous know is Naturally, Canada! To say that there is a Great Deal on My Twisted Mind is Putting it Mildly! Now where the fuck to begin, I guess that beckons to be the Multi-Million Dollar Question, eh? Alright as is Now Common Knowledge; I recently Lived through what was My 50th Birthday, now in all Honesty; who would have thought I would have Lived to see this Milestone? I have to be honest with yous; I didn't think I would! Why do I say this? Well; as we all know the Only Guarantees in Life are Death and Taxes. But with everything I have experienced; I Openly admit I am surprised that I have made it this far in the Grand Scheme of Life as a Whole! Yet I Look forward to This Coming Thursday; especially 8:35 PM That Evening. Why do I say this? O.K. Please for those of yous who have been Living under a fucking Rock, allow me to drop some Important knowledge on yous! 8:35 PM on Monday December 12, 1994 is the very Minute My Life would Change for what will be the Rest of it; that's right that was the Minute that I became a Father for the 1st (and what I thought the ONLY Time In My Life) for it was at that Very Minute on the 5th Floor at what is Now Known as McLaren Port Huron Medical Center in Port Huron; My Daughter, Marjorie Rose was born. Now as we all know she will be Turning 25 Years Old (How Ironic is this? I am Now a Half a Century Old whereas My Daughter is a Quarter of a Century Old) Now for all of you Fathers who Witnessed the Birth of Your Child (ren); yous know exactly what I am talking about! Now In My Case, I only got to Witness the Birth of My Daughter; when My Youngest Child, My 23 Year Old Son, Jonathan was Born; I in essence didn't even realize he was a Reality Until in essence a Week Later. Now this may sound Like a Coincidence; but On Wednesday September 18, 1996; My Son was Born at 8:30 AM that Morning; essentially damn near 12 Hours before or after his Sister was Born. I realize that My Kids are a Year and 9 Months apart as far as their Ages are Concerned. Now I know I have told My Daughter to Make certain that I am Dead before she Makes Me a Grandfather, now wht do I say this? Well My fear of becoming a Grandfather was in essence the Same Rationale I feared becoming a Father! Think about this shit; at that Time, My Now 27 Year Old Nephew, Cody was about 2 Months short of what was his 3rd Birthday; and I really felt I wasn't a very Good Role Model for him! Back then I was in essence a 24 Hour Whore; Not that I am ashamed of that, why the fuck should I be? But Knowing that I gad to be a Role Model for a Child of My Own; well safe to say I had to Grow Up and in a Hurry! I Guess I shall take yous back to that Magical Date in 1994; My Kids' Now Late Mother, Melisa was Visiting her Doctor ashed when she was going to have the baby? The Doctor Responded "Either December 12 or December 13." He then explained why he said that and in My Twisted Mind I'm saying "Oh fuck! I guess My Life will never be the same, what if I fail this Child as My "Father" did with me? How will I be able to Live with that?" So we Proceed to the Hospital where the Doctor Induces Labour. Now Naturally I am doing My Best to make the best of a bad situation; because Places Like that ain't what I call an Ideal Hangout! To Make Matters even Worse; her Parents Make their Way from Lapeer (where Melisa Grew Up) and sure enough since Melisa's Mother and I didn't get along very well, her Mother said upon her arrival "What did you do to her this time, you son of a bitch?" I Naturally Responded "Listen you Old Hag, you can Climb back on your Broom and Fly back to your Lair; she's about to Give birth to your Grandson and you don't have to see him of you so strongly Object to the way Your Daughter got Knocked Up! (Of course I thought My Daughter was going to be a boy until the very Minute she was born) After dropping Melisa's Now Late Father off at a Hotel; I come back to the Delivery Room and it's about 8:00 PM. Now I'm Terrified; so after Piling Up 12 Coke Cans (They were selling for Only $0.55 apiece at the Time and of course I didn't have any beer available to me; so Now  I am attempting to keep from Passing Out because I am so damn nervous about meeting My Son for the 1st Time. So I can Now see the baby's Head Crowning Out, then the rest of the body shoots Out after the Head the Doctor Catches the baby; I Look at My then Newborn Child and see that it's a Girl; at that Point I didn't Give a fuck; I ran Out of the  Delivery Room Celebrating Like the Detroit Lions had Won the Damn Super Bowl. I run across another Expectant Father and Tell Him that I have a Daughter; well he tells me the same thing that his Wife Gave Birth to a baby Girl; I proceed to Pick this Guy, a Complete Stranger up in a bear hug! Well; I guess when a Man becomes a Father for the First Time in His Life; he will Celebrate with Just about anybody, eh? Alright; now that we have Completed that Trip down Memory Lane. Here's where I Post an all too familiar Disclaimer that if yous don't Like what I say; then stop Reading this Posting right Now; because I ain't got time to deal with those whose Goal in Life is to Censor Me! Now, I Openly admit I do use some rather Salty Language when I write these Posts; but Understand that these Posts are from deep within the very dark depths of My Twisted Mind. I realize there are some who don't Like My Liberal Use of the word "fuck", and Nobody gets that More than I do! Yet If I didn't write the way I normally talk; People would accuse me of being Dishonest; and of course I always aim to Tell the Truth as Much as Humanly Possible. Moving Right Along; as I have mentioned My Life has in essence reached a Crossroads; think about this. I am Now Divorced for the Second Time in My Life; but My Ex-Wife and I Get Along Rather Nicely; I Guess she Now has finally accepted me for who I really am; which as a 24 Hour whore. Now of course I never Once believed that Humans Being are Meant to be Monogamous; I Never could understand the fucking fallicy that so Many attempt to cram down our fucking throats every day! Now for those who are Happy being Monogamous to 1 Person; well then More Power to yous! Yet I never once Claimed that I am a "Beacon of Morals and Virtue!" I am very Open about Most Every facet of My Life; Including the Over 50 Women that I have had sex with; I ain't the Least bit ashamed of any of that! Why should I be? I mean doesn't shows Like Jerry Springer Prove that the Myth of Human Monogamy is exactly that? a MYTH! I Mean think about this; My Now Ex-Wife wasn't Completely Faithful and Loyal to Me throughout Our Marriage and Neither was I! But according to this DRUNK that My Mother has been Married to for the Last 32 fucking Years; apparently I am Evil Incarnate! Yet this is somebody who fucked His Own "Grandson's"  Mother! Now of course this fucking DRUNK Denies it; and of course My Mother who is Now 70 Years Old is either Completely Oblivious to his indiscretions or she simply doesn't Give a Damn about it! Yet he has the fucking Nerve to Call me an "Adulterer" because I had a Girlfriend Outside of My Marriage! Now ain't this the Pot Calling the fucking Kettle Black? O.K. Let me Make this 1000% Crystal Clear; whether or Not My Mother's Husband did have sex with My Nephew's Mother or Not I Cannot Prove it; but whether or not that it did or didn't happen; I SIMPLY DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK!  What goes on In My Mother's House and or In her Marriage is Simply of NO Concern to me! Yet My Mother's Husband has the fucking Balls to take a Page out of the Book of My Biological Father and Quote the fucking Bible to be a fucking Bully! To that I say Practice what you Preach you fucking HYPOCRITE!  I mean he doesn't Live in a Glass House so what the fuck Right does he have to Throw Rocks at me? But he went and did the Ultimate; he FORCED My Mother to CHOOSE between Him, His Money, now follow along; because He was an Over the Road Truck Driver and Made an Average of about $65.000.00 a Year; Until he was FIRED after Wrecking the Truck he was Driving at that Time which in Essence ended his Career but he Obtained a 6 Figure fucking Settlement from that Accident Despite the Fact that he was Found to be "AT FAULT" for that Collision; and that Security of Married Life; or her 2 Sons! Now Allow Me to Make this Point very Clear as well; I NEVER Put My Mother in this Position and neither did My Brother; Her Husband did! What the fuck Kind of a "Man" Tells his Girlfriend/Wife that she HAS TO CHOOSE between Him and her Child (ren)? Allow Me to give you a Hypothetical scenario; now as we all know it will NEVER Unfold because this Nasty Cunt, Jessica that I Once dated and I stopped seeing each other in August of 2018. However Let's Play Out the Hypothetical Scenario: Jessica has a Son who will Turn 10 in March; now Let's Just say I didn't get along with the Kid and I Told Jessica that she HAS TO CHOOSE between Me or Her Child; what Kind of a Man would I be? I would be Looked at as Extremely Selfish, now wouldn't I?  Now if ANY Woman Told Me that I HAVE TO CHOOSE Between her and My Kids; I would Promptly Tell her to hit her head against a fucking Cinder block at Least 100 Times until she Dropped Dead or got the fucking Hint that I will ALWAYS Choose My Kids No Matter what! However, My Mother did the Unthinkable; and CHOSE the Alcoholic that she has been Married  tp for the Last 32 Years! Despite Missing Family Holidays because he chose to get fucked up! I ain't saying I'm No Angel; but I NEVER ONCE Missed Out on Thanksgiving  or Christmas Dinners because I was Loaded! Now it seems as if My Mother's Husband is so damn Obsessed with Obliterating Every Memory of My Biological Father from My Mother's Life including her 2 Sons! Yet News Flash; he Cannot Obliterate his Biological Connection to My Biological Father because My Mother's Husband is My Biological Father's Nephew; Talk about a Topic that's Worthy of being On the Jerry Springer Show; Now Let's really think about this; when My Brother and I referred to this "Man" as "Dad" after he Married My Mother, we did so Mostly as a Joke! Now bear this in Mind the Term "Dad" is Not and SHOULD NEVER be bestowed on a Man Once he becomes a Father; that Title in My Opinion Needs to be EARNED! Now by No Means am I Defending My Biological Father, because I have My Share of Grievances against him as well; after all I haven't spoken to this "Man" in Over 30 Years! If I wanted to get In Contact with My Biological Father; I wouldn't Know where to start; yet at this Time; I still have No Desire to speak to him! He has yet to even Meet My Daughter or My Son; even though Both of My Kids are free to do so. My Kids for a Majority of their Lives have Known only 1 "Man" as "Grandpa" and that's My Mother's Husband! Melisa's Father Passed away in February of 1999. At that Time, Marjorie was Only 4 Years Old and Jonathan was only 2. Therefore I don't know if they have Much of a Memory of their Maternal Grandfather. So here it is Now Damn Near 4 Years since I have spoken to My Mother; Grant it, My Mother and I do have somewhat of a Rocky History, but that doesn't Mean I don't give a Damn about My Mother; Yet she CHOSE Her Husband Over My brother and I! Now I can't speak for My brother. And I KNOW for a FACT that My Mother's Husband is too much of a fucking CHICKEN SHIT COWARD to Come to My Home and ADMIT that he's In the Wrong and APOLOGIZE; now of course I ain't a hard Man to Find! But after he attempted to Lure me out to My Mother's House so he can Pull his GUN on Me! I mean how many of yous Remember the Murder of R & B Singer, Marvin Gaye? Marvin Gaye's Father Shot Gaye Twice with the first Shot Proving to be the Fatal Shot, after Gaye has whipped his Father's ass in a Physical Fight! Now Of course Marvin Gaye was Whacked Out on Cocaine; whereas I have HAD ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WHATSOEVER TO DO WITH DRUGS IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! I can Understand why My Mother's Husband is Scared to Death of Me (especially without his GUN) because even though I don't Like Using My Hands for the Purpose of Inflicting Physical Injury on ANY Other Human's Being; I could Literally break his ass in half if I wanted to! Yet I NEVER ONCE thought I would wind up throwing hands against somebody I Looked Up to for My Entire Life! Yet what Precipitated all of this? Well apparently My Mother's Husband has a Major Problem Respecting fucking Boundaries! What fucking Business does he have Interrogating Me over to whether I have a Girlfriend Outside of My Marriage or not? I  mean I could have DEMANDED to Know why he allegedly fucked My Nephew's Mother; while still Married to My Mother; but I didn't because I REALLY DON'T GIVE A DAMN about that!  Maybe I will Write My Mother's Husband a Letter and Call Him Out; Yet I don't know when I will get the Chance to do that! I Guess the Main Crucial Question is will I ever see or Talk to My Mother; before it's too Late? I hope that someday, My Mother will at Least Make an attempt to reach out to My Brother and I; before her time on this very Vessel we Call Planet Earth is up! At Least My Now Late Father-In-Law; made an attempt to Make Amends with My Now Ex-Wife before he Passed Away in 2017. Now of course it's Up to My Mother's Husband to Take that 1st Step; admit he has a Problem with Alcohol; Get Treatment, and Quit Drinking Alcohol! Then he needs to do the RIGHT THING and APOLOGIZE for Tarnishing My Reputation around Port Huron by Calling me a fucking "Dope Trafficker!" Most of all he Needs to Quit Holding My Mother Hostage; to his Alcoholism and his "Bruised Ego"! He Needs to Get the fuck Over the FACT that I STOOD UP to him! The LAST Thing I want and or Need is a Violent Physical Confrontation in where somebody ends up getting Injured or Killed! Yet somehow; I ain't so Certain that he will Swallow his Stubborn PRIDE and admit that he's CLEARLY in the Wrong! I hate to say this, but I don't see that happening anytime soon! What a shame that My Family has to Suffer, because One Person's Ego got bruised! Stay Tuned, because Stranger Things have happened! Until Next Time this is Michigan's Resident Rocker saying Live your Life on your Own Terms!